God has a special place in his heart for mothers. ALMOST, but not every woman can give birth, BUT it takes a special kind of woman to be a mother. Not everyone is caring and nurturing. I think that God knows that motherhood can be a challenge and he chooses "special" moms for "special kids". I think that God knew that I was not capable of handling a child with "special needs" after all that I had been through during my pregnancy with MiMi. God knew that I had been through enough and fought hard enough just to get her in this world. For those of you who don't know my story, in a nutshell: At 3 months pregnant it was discovered that my cervix was opening and it was happening rapidly! I had to visit 3 specialist before they would do the cerclage(stitching my cervix closed) because they don't normally do it for first pregnancies, but I refused to miscarry my baby knowing that something could be done to save the precious life forming inside of me. I can vividly remember sitting on the floor in my bedroom beside my bed praying and crying out to God to save my baby because at the times I felt my cervix contracting. Needless to say, I had the cerclage followed by 5 months of bed rest and in June of 2006 I gave birth to my precious "Myr'Acle"! I named her "miracle" because I felt that was what she was; a blessing from God. God heard my cry and answered my prayers.
I said all that to say that God will not give us more than we can bear. He knew that after the struggle I went through with my pregnancy, then laboring for 24 hrs, and finally having to have a C-section that I couldn't handle anymore than I had been through. God knows what storms we are able to weather; he knows what trials and tests we can pass. He knows which mothers are capable of taking care of children with special needs; the one's who will provide them with the best love and care.
When God created mothers he put something on the inside of them that no one will understand; he gave them the ability to just make everything better! As I think of Scilla and what she has gone through; you see her needing help with the smallest tasks, but yet still, her priority has been her family. One of her doctors even commented that Scilla was more concerned with making sure her 16 year daughter was okay than with what was going on with her. That is a testament to greatest love of all; a mother's love! My mother, my rock, my best friend has stood strongly on her faith in God and has never doubted his ability to bless her beyond measure. It is hard to get a call saying your child; your first born has been injured severely; but she didn't miss one beat, she did what she taught all her girls to do; Pray! My dear classmate, Mary Beth, sweet Emma's mom; she has really been tested; but in spite of, she put herself last and Emma first. She had a painful C-section with Emma, but that didn't stop her from being by Emma's bedside almost every day for the entire day. She made sure Emma's every need was met and went over nurses and doctors or whoever stood in her way to make sure Emma received the best care during her stay. Then there is Lashonda; she had her baby boy 4 months early. The doctor wanted her to let her son die; but she refused and said do whatever it takes to save my baby while I start praying. These women exhibit the greatest love there is and although they have been through a lot in the past two months; they share a common bond; they have a strong faith and believe in God to perform the miracles they know he is capable of.
I leave you today with my mothers day poem I wrote for Prissy:
Priscilla
Praying for strength, healing and restoration.
Realizing that I must stay focused and
In God I must trust.
Standing on his holy word, knowing that he
Can do the
Impossible.
Learning new things and new ways of
Life.
All I can do is continue to walk in faith…
Priscilla, we love you and know that your faithfulness will bring you through.
